More questions than answers, More limitations than liberations, More rage than reason, More energy than patience.
I am an activist in every sense of the word, I cannot remain passive or calm in the face of injustice or in the face of the obvious distress of a loved one or friend. I am a tesla coil, and as unfettered as I am energetic.
I am high energy and high strung.
I have few calming forces and too many triggers.
I need to learn control. I need to learn to relax and calm. I need to learn to listen and wait. I need to learn that I am not invincible. I need to learn that I can help, but also that I can hinder. I need to learn to restraint. I need to learn that not all obstacles can be cleared head first and at speed. I need to learn that I can be a weapon or a life raft for those that I love. I need to learn that not everything happens on my terms. I need to learn restraint. But I dont want to.
I am far more than I believe I am, and far less as well